Not Without Reason, Not Without Ceremony

for Dawn.

Where I come from,
we thank a person all over again, as if we
never did before, even if it was just for them
having to:
a) spend mind and thought,
b) give gift or token, or money, even
c) carve time and presence
for the small ceremony we even
forgot to directly, explicitly invite them to…

Picture mine: Some Sun, While It Still Lasts… — Bloomington, Illinois: Thursday, October 5, 2023 (Fall).

Where I come from,
they say shelter is a more delicate and difficult
thing than:
a) the frame and grace that clothing lends.
b) perhaps, even, the life they say Water is.
c) the heft of Corn and Fish, for the sagging
stomach-sack, and for the peculiar character

Picture mine: Ga Kɔmi Kɛ Ŋshɔŋ Loo Ni Ashĩ Kɛ Shitɔ (Ga Kenkey and Fried Fish and Pepper Sauce): The Good Food of Corn and Fish, With The Character of Pepper and Salt and Some… — Normal, Illinois: Friday, December 22, 2023 (Winter).

of salt and pepper to help the heft sit and settle in…
— because kindness may not be a
thing to:
a) count in weights and depths and widths.
b) label with languages of worth and import.
c) assign measures of essences and immediacies.
— but there should be something to say about those kind of
kindness-es heavy and hefty alike with further kindness-es
that continue to give and give and extend of themselves…

Picture mine: First Snow, When It Finally Arrives… — Normal, Illinois: Sunday, November 26, 2023 (Winter).

Where I come from,
we wake up, we go early,
long before Day pours with
fresh shine and crisp clarity,
not long after Dawn breaks and
hen and cock alike calls and crows,

to say and do our thank-s
— because the natural business of kindness
is (en)twin(ed) with the sacred diligence of gratitude.

Picture mine: A Prayer, A Sign, A Peace, And Some… — Normal, Illinois: Monday, October 2, 2023 (Fall).

– Normal, Illinois, USA:

Morning of Monday, October 23 & Night of Tuesday, December 26, 2023.

Love,
AishaWrites.

#ThisCountryWeMustLove

this Country can kill you, but first, they will
spot the white and crease the cotton of your clothes –
and even split a seam and slash a slit, if you let them –
a second before you encounter your in-law the first time.

Gold Ghost OR A Bitter Kingdom.
– Around North Kaneshie: Saturday, 22nd April, 2023.

this Country can kill you, but first, they must
flush the life and drain the juice, from your lungs and brain,
and lavishly waste these on basic-s that plain sense or plainer
old conscience – or a mere click – can solve or save – avert, even.

this Country can kill you, but first, they must
stealth and steal away the water you have stocked in your
cheek pockets, in wait for harmattan – after they rain fire
and worse on your neighbour’s house, and then turn to yours…

Making Do with Dearth and Death Despite the Divine
– Mempeasem, Accra, Ghana: Tuesday, 29th December, 2022.

this Country will kill you, and you need not first
wrong or provoke them, or offend or poke them – it is
enough crime and just punishment to be daring enough,
to be lucky enough, to be born in them, or by them – just this.

– East Legon, Accra, Ghana
Thursday, 6th April, 2023
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Love,
AishaWrites.

Who Will I Even Get…?

Someone should
call him for me, tell him
the gulp of water I down turns sour fast,
and a morsel of corn I swallow bites before it fills,
tell him one corner of my heart hangs loose on its hinges.

Someone should
call him for me, tell him
the rains beat me with a special vengeance,
and the sun scrapes my skin with a keen steely might,
tell him two strings in my heart have thinned to the point of tear.

Picture mine || Personal Effect: Painting by Y. P. E. Abdallah, who played a major cast role in my recent stage play, Drumbeat. || December 17, 2022.

Someone should
call him for me, tell him
the cold can-not be contained, the heat can-not be braced,
the world poses puzzles, life acquires novel mysteries, and fears surge,
tell him three stitches in my heart have come undone, and a little worse.

Someone should
call him for me, tell him I am
not alright, not well, until his quietness ebbs,
not all–right, not at all, until this his sadness lifts,

Picture mine || Personal Effect: Work and Study Notes and To-Do-s…and Face Masks. || December 17, 2022.

until my words find (place and
grace in) his ears, (in) his pleasure,
until his voice pours lull and salve
into my ears, into my being, again.

Someone should
call him, tell him…
for he will not hear me.
for he will not give me mind.

Tuesday, September 27, 2022: University of Ghana, Legon.

Love,
AishaWrites.

Water and Sun, Prayer or Something Towards It.

A Plant

I only noticed, after

the flowerless, the fruitless meeting:
beside the office door sat a pot
in which lived a plant that has
contorted itself long and odd,

On the Smooth and Silk of White Sand – Earth.
somewhere beyond the Achimota of Ga, Accra – Monday, June 16, 2022


so to
eke a speck,
catch a scratch,
of sun and shine –

of life or something like it.

Thursday, May 5, 2022: IAS Library, University of Ghana, Legon.

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A(nother) Prayer for Water

– with *Adane Best


I
Bo Tsɛ Ofe Lɛ,
Bo Ataa Kpakpa…

II
before You shine strong
and mighty for me,
before You blaze bright
and fierce for my life-path,

On the Grit and Ground of Granite – and Black Tar.
somewhere within the Legon of Ga, Accra – Friday, July 29, 2022.

Water, first, Ataa:
to heal the parch and tear
in my throat,
to help the many pits and fears
in my soul.

Water, I plead, Ataa:
to salve and save,
to fill and firm.

III
Eba mli
aha mi.

Thursday, August 11, 2022: University of Ghana, Legon.

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Love,
AishaWrites.

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*Also known as Joseph Amoah, Adane Best is a Ga highlife musician with several hit albums since the 1990s. The first verse of the second section of this poem references Rabbi, one of his titles. Adesa (Human Being) and Ayitey are some of his popular titles.

Without Leash.

when the rain falls thick
go partying in its heart, dance
to the tune of petrichor
with no cares for ready puddles and a-waiting colds

Picture mine: Wine and Soul MuseNorth Kaneshie: Sunday, 31st May, 2020

when the sun smiles large
go savour its gold, drink
to the easy jade-s and edgy joys of wilt-s and
whorls

while the wind heaves past
go prise open its pouch, peer
to learn the places and people-s it’s laden
with

Picture mine: Wine and Wind MuseNorth Kaneshie: Sunday, 31st May, 2020

then

when the darkness descends hard
(you’d have had stores of life and light
to) go prancing and drinking in and prying into all
its quiet-udes and myth-stries, its

what-if-s

A version of this poem was first published in an issue of Illinois State University’s Obsidian, A Journal of Literature and Arts in the African Diaspora.

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Love,

AishaWrites.

– first hours of Saturday, 12th February, 2022: Legon, Accra, Ghana.

…Until Jesus Was Born.

It was a day like any other until,
Joseph and Mary arrived in Judea, the City of David,
And Jesus, the Savior, the Son of the Highest, was born.

It was a day like any other until,
Bethlehem was full of people, and had no room left, so
A Mother had to lay her new born child in a lowly manger.

Photo mine. Dusk-break. Beach somewhere between Osu and Labadi,
Accra, Ghana: 2nd December 2018.

It was a day like any other day until,
An angel appeared, with glorious light, and with happy news,
To shepherds watching over their flocks on a cold wintery night.

Photo mine“Glory be to God,” says a canoe. Beach around the James Town
Lighthouse and the Brazil House of the Tabom People, both of Ga Mashi.
Circa September 2017.

It was a day like any other day until
Wise men from afar followed the star of a Great King,
And arrived at a small inn, with gifts, and with worship.

It was a day like any other
Until God put on flesh and came down to dwell with humankind.
Until Eternal Love and Joy Unspeakable became humankind’s heritage.

– Morning of Wednesday, 15th December 2021: Legon, Accra.

Ashirifia.

Sometimes, I
think about you, miss you in
ways I struggle to trust myself with,
ways I am yet to teach myself to be capable of, to accept.

Sometimes, I
think about you, fill in the blanks
with the person you may have (e)merged into,
with the new beauties of the humanity you may have put on.

Sometimes, I
think about you, turn over in my mind
the quiet vividness of that friendship we shared,
the friendship I am yet to find word and name for.

Inside the Ga Mashi. – Accra Central, Accra, Ghana. // Photo mine – Saturday, 14th August 2021.

Sometimes, I
think about you, re-live in prayer-dreams
how we waited and watched out and what-not for each other,
how we talked and walked with each other even on days we just didn’t…

And today too,
when I think about you, when I wonder about you,
a tear or three threatens, my heart skips beats, my head hums,
a vague pain knots in my chest, sits insistent in the bowl of my small belly.

– Legon, Accra: Early hours of Wednesday, 6th October, 2021.

Nibii Bibii*…

ask me of my love for her
and I will tell you about
the smallest of things in the smallest of moments – things of and about her:

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the neat fold of her lithe limbs and the coil of her frame, when
the tides began to shed
their quiet leaps and bright tenors for one loud void and ashen shrill.

Picture mine – Around Legon, Accra: Monday 8th Feb. 2021.

the blank and wet on her face as she
gazed into nothingness, when I told her it can’t possibly
rain and pour, roar and pain without end – and not without her will to up and on still.

the sharp arching of her left brow,
once when I had asked her what she thought of
hopes and dreams going stale, then sour, with one wait after more waste…

Picture mine – Legon, Accra: Thursday, 24th Feb. 2020.

the knotting of her smile on one tip of her tiny thick lips,
when I told her that Sun showed up and sweet – and generously so –
after what, until now, tasted like forever.

the sudden coming of her pointless mischiefs,
the unpredictable turn of her next funny thing – in the middle of
what should be, what has been anything but play, anything but a joke.

Picture mine – North Kaneshie, Accra: Wednesday, 23rd Dec. 2020.

the easy, lucid recklessness of her waist, as
she danced away to that silly song she knew was silly but
she loved like mad and silly and all – all the same, and with no shame at all.

the sweep and setting of her hips in a gait
which defies name, which transcends walk, which dances
to its own song – when I make way, as I’m wont to, for her to go before me…

Picture mine – Gallery 1957, Accra: Tuesday, 9th Jun. 2020.

the lush and soul of the life and presence in her eyes when
she begins and soon gets happily lost in
a World where Words and Water and Wonder and such and similar live and thrive…

*

ask me about
the smallest of things in the smallest of moments – things of and about her
and I will only begin tracing the form and frame of Love – my Love for and of her.

               

– Morning of Monday, 21st June 2021: Legon, Accra.

* Niibii Bibii‘ is Ga for ‘Little Things’, as in, the not-exactly little things because of which we love, we laugh – we live…

The Speech That Didn’t Happen. The Win!

Reader Dear,

I thought you might have learnt somewhere, but might still want me too to tell you about the 2018 Professor Kofi Awoonor Literary Prize and how it was won by a certain Sheilla Nelson. Or an Aisha Nelson.

I am the same, the said Nelson – whether Sheilla or Aisha, whether Aishetu or Aisha. (One day I will talk about my name(s) properly, fully.)

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Picture mine: A copy of the unpublished anthology I submitted for the prize.

Bits and bigger about the biennial prize are known: from the earlier official announcement in 2018, from related social media posts  by various people including my Facebook post days after the awards ceremony, and from a blog post by James Murua.

In a later Facebook post related to a stage adaptation of Osiris Rising, I will mention how the novel’s writer, Onukpa Ayi Kwei Armah, inspired – and more – the titular short story of  my unpublished anthology, Lens and Other Stories

This is the work I submitted for the prize – a soft-bound book. A manuscript.

Perhaps, the only new thing about the 2018 (Fiction) edition of the Prize was that its awards ceremony was grafted into the Academic Directorate of the University of Ghana’s second day of what has come to be called “Vice Chancellor’s Ceremony in Honour of Academic Award Winners” – for the 2017/2018 Academic Year. This awards ceremony is done on two consecutive days, usually a Thursday and Friday, for the Sciences and Humanities respectively. I received the prize on the second day, it being administered by the Department of English, which is a part of the Faculty of Humanities.

All of this arrangement, it was unlike the maiden/2016 (Poetry) edition of the prize, which was held as a separate and full event at the Kempinski Hotel in Accra. This edition was won by one Sarpong Kumankoma (Agyei Sarpong Amos).

The rest of the details of the edition for which I was adjudged winner? Nothing so new. Everything quite personal:

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Picture mine: The brochure for day 1 (Sciences) and day 2 (Humanities) of the awards ceremony.

1.   Like how I had been at The Balme Library and other places on the University of Ghana campus quite more than a few times to put finishing touches on and to print the manuscript – per the submission requirements – and finally, to submit the package at said Department of English.

And how months later, the next year, I got a WhatsApp message one afternoon (when I was still not fully peeled from the hold of a nap) to come pick up a letter and sign my acceptance of the prize and of attending the awards ceremony at the Great Hall of same university.

Dates include July 4 and 17, 2018; and February 22 and March 1, 2019.

2.   How I was joined by my long time and academic friend Agnes Quansah, my friend and writer friend Agnes Gyening, and my past-student-turned-friend Vanessa Aduama, for the awards night.

3.   The surprise but understandable story about how Sheilla Nelson came to be the name on the award certificate, even though I had submitted for the prize as Aisha Nelson.

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Picture mine: The prize certificate given me.

(I have already said to tell the story about my name(s) later, remember?)

4.   How earlier versions of more than half of the 10 short stories in Lens and Other Stories have been variously and previously published and sometimes, re-published here at Nu kɛ Hulu (Water and Sun) .

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Picture mine: The outfit I nearly wore for the awards night.

5.   The funny little story about how I came to decide what to wear for the awards night and the later funnier story about how I put away that beautiful red dress (something decidedly unconventional, stylishly formal, and girlishly diva) and settled on what I ended up wearing (something shyly conventional and formal, something accidentally mature and chic).

How in the end, it all turned out to be a hearty, event-full and love-filled evening which could neither be undone nor even touched by the rains that poured, and by the fact that my three friends were meeting each other for the first time, me being the mutual one…

6.   The speech I had written a day before the awards night, in ready, in case I am asked to give any. Because that should be expected. The poem, I had added to the speech, in case I am asked to do a reading of (some or any of) my writing. Also.

Choosing a poem and not anything prose – prose, which would have been in perfect keeping with the genre of that year’s edition of the prize. Choosing, again, a poem because of its typical brevity, its more organic, self-contained qualities. And choosing the particular poem I chose because I had it written, already, years earlier, in honour of the man in whose honour the prize is.

7.   Both speech and poem.

Because I had no way of knowing the awards ceremony was not going to be what I had it imagined to be, a gathering of people involved in, with interest in the prize – writers and academics and people in the circles of these, the prize runners-up and other participants, the friends and perhaps families and others of all these. Until I arrived. Because I wanted to not have to be under the gaze of lights and eyes twice. And for long. Because I did not want to be taken unawares, unprepared for a speech and such during the fun and buzz and such of the ceremony. A ceremony I had no idea changes had been made to…

8.   Now, said speech:

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Speech for Awards Ceremony of the 2018 Professor Kofi Awoonor Literary Prize (Fiction) – by Aisha Nelson.

I am highly honoured, quietly but very excited to have won this second and fiction edition of the Professor Kofi Awoonor Literary Prize.

Somewhere and sometime in the past, I have told the story of how I never remember setting out as a writer. But here I am now. Again. Much of that story was not about me.  Much of that story is not about me.

And from today, much of that story will not be about only me. I have mentioned with great gratitude and fondness, the late Ms. Wobson, my senior high school English teacher who first saw and said I am a writer one time in class; Madam Star Nyaniba Hammond, who also went too early and sadly.

I have written more than a story and a song about and for the gift of fathers and teachers and friends and believers including Dr. Mawuli Adjei, Professor Kofi Anyidoho, Dr. Martin Egblewogbe, Kwabena Agyare Yeboah, Jonathan Bill Doe, Agnes Quansah, Agnes Gyening. And Kojo – because he insisted I mention his name too.

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Picture by Vanessa Aduama: My (other) friends and meAgnes Quansah and her son on the left, and Agnes Gyening on the right.

I can talk forever about the Giver of all good and beauty-full Gifts, Ataa Naa Nyɔŋmɔ.

I can talk long about my late Grandmother, Mary Ansaba Botchway; Mother, Naa Amanuah Ankrah; my late Father, Ali Nelson. And my nephew, Kofi Poku Odum – who nearly joined me here.

 And right now, I want to share a poem, a poem I was to contribute – a few years ago – to an anthology in honour of the man in whose name and legacy we are gathered here, Professor Kofi Awoonor. Onukpa Kofi (Nyidevu) Awoonor.

 

No Praise – for Onukpa Kofi Nyidevu Awoonor.

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Grand-e-mother said someone’s one can be more
than another’s ten. One Child.
So here, take corn, salt, take
Pepper. Take that which sates and has character.

Where I come from, they say one can be the killer
of cow for feeding the whole town. (Wo)Man.
Oh smile. laugh. even in death (read SLEEP).
Shine. live and sing. now and on. and again.

Where I come from, they say he does
not age (together) with his claws. The Old Leopard.
So here, take dew, wine, take
Water. Take that which fills and extends…

 

II

fate got it
Wrong. And it’s not fate’s first time. It bit. It
chewed. And it will forever be left
With the swallowing, the eating proper.

fate forgot
One time too many that even in death (read SLEEP), some
Leopards, with one stone of a leap, kill that two-bird of
a death, of a cow, with one leap of
A life, of a life that shames both age and grave.

 

III

praise is
ugly in mouths still munching the pay to praise. praise is
sickly when the one it is poured on needs to look askance,
to look behind to see if it is not for another the praise is…

Praise
will not be forced, will not be poured, not be willed.
Praise is comely on Its own self. So here, take no praise.

Be. Take. You.—-Praise. Are. You…

 

Thank you.

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Love,

AishaWrites, 
AishaWinsToo.

Tuesday, 11th June 2019;
Dansoman, Accra, Ghana.

 

A Poem and Some: To Onukpa Atukwei Okai, In Memoriam. (Part 2)

 

This is the second and concluding Part of this writing. Read the first part.

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Picture of Prof. Atukwei Okai – Image may be protected by copyright.

The next and last time I encountered Onukpa Atukwei Okai, it was not at PAWA House.

That next and last time, it was a phone conversation, a conversation which occurred days before my getting into what has always been the very closed undergrad (third year) Introduction to Creative Writing class at the Department of English, University of Ghana, Legon.

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Foregrounds of the The Balme Library, of the University of Ghana, Legon – Image may be protected by copyright.

Prof. Kofi Anyidoho was to be the lecturer, and he would later be a teacher, and a father, to us his students – and when I am not too shy, he would be a friend too, to me, like any of the rest.

And this was throughout the two years that the full Creative Writing courses ran – that is, throughout the two years the course progressed from Introduction to Creative Writing (year three, first semester) and congealed into simply Creative Writing (year three, second semester) before caking with a frightening but freeing intent into Advanced Creative Writing (final year, year-long).

And this was throughout same two years during which the class size was whittled down from 21 to 15 and then straight to 5 students.

From Twenty-One

With the One sitting odd and decidedly detached from the neatly even Twenty, the One sitting aloof yet playing like It belonged to the defined, recognisable form of the Twenty…

I was that One

And for reasons and circumstances I am – again, even up to this day – not able to fully understand and believe, I was one of that final Five.

I was One. Anyway. Despite. In the end.

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Picture Mine: Personal copies of portfolio submitted for grading at the end of each semester of the entire Creative Writing courses: ENGL 363 – Third Year, First Semester; ENGL 364 – Third Year, Second Semester; ENGL 450 – Year long, Final Year. ENGL 450 portfolio is submitted at the end of both semesters, the final one being the ‘fuller’, final student work.

Somewhere during those two years, Dr. Mawuli Adjei would take the classes for some four or two weeks, while Prof. Anyidoho needed to be away. And this was not necessarily the beginning, but definitely was a reference point for his becoming my former lecturer and an ongoing teacher, a kind father and great friend. (And oh, for a reason I’m yet to know, and perhaps, too shy, as usual, to ask, he calls me Sheilla, not Aisha! But not like I mind. So…) Dr. Mawuli Adjei.

Again, forgive me if I (seem to) have digressed again: I only want to tell this story and tell all of it (in one piece, at one place) and never have to tell (another bit of) it elsewhere, again.

So that phone conversation with Onukpa Atukwei Okai. The point of it all was as urgent and grave as the great good which his bringing of Madam Star Nyaniba Hammond and I together brought to my writer-life.

So somewhere in that very brief phone conversation, there was something Onukpa Atukwei Okai said, something after which our conversation had to die a natural, sudden end.

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Credit: BBC Pidgin// ‘Proverb’ Translation: No matter full a bus gets, nobody sits on the driver’s seat.

Something which sank with indelible impact in me because Onukpa Atukwei had taken the time and care to say it in Ga, the mother-tongue he and I shared.

Something which I would later ponder and wonder long about for days and hours, weeks and close to months and a year.

Something which, in the end, would seep and pour and pool into a poem I would write and include in the portfolio I would submit for grading at the end of the first semester of the entire Creative Writing course.

A poem which, in its own weight and ways, would add to the grades which would keep me in the class throughout those two years, the two years at the end of which only 5 out of the initial jagged-edged number of a 21 – rather than the crisply neat 20 – students remained. Solely by merit, I must mention.

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Picture of Prof. Atukwei Okai – Image may be protected by copyright.

And even though I am certain Onukpa Atukwei Okai did not know, and might/would never know about this poem, I do not want to forget to let it be known that long before he passed on, he had lived and will continue to live in a poem he inspired.

A poem he could have as well written and written far better.

A poem he would have all but written if not that it would have been – or at least, have seemed – too novice of him.

A poem he inspired, singularly, all the same.

A poem, I say.

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The Car 

I have a destination
I have a ticket
the car is full
some said

I have to get there
I have what it takes
the car is full
all chanted

I shall be there
I ought to
the car is full
conductor comes

here I am
out-standing them all
the car came full
and I was the driver

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Love,

AishaWrites,
AishaRemembersToo.

Monday 20th August, 2018;
Kalpohine Estates, Tamale, Ghana.

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PS.:

 The Car was one of the poems I read on the weekly radio programme, Writers Project on Citi, on Citi 97.3 FM, on Sunday, 6th May 2012. Before then, I had performed this poem at an open-air theatre event by the Academy of Young Writers – Ghana, at Mensah Sarbah Hall, University of Ghana, Legon